be of you that forfaketh not all that he "hath, he cannot be my difciple."

If these things, I cried, are to be taken according to the apparent fenfe and import of the letter, neither the teachers of the gofpel, nor those who are taught, can be faved.

Therefore, replied he, it is faid, that "Many be called, but few chofen." And again, "Enter ye in at the ftrait gate; for wide is the gate, and broad is the

way that leadeth to deftruction, and "many they be which go in thereat: be"caufe ftrait is the gate, and narrow is "the way which leadeth unto life, and "few there be that find it." O my Harry, my Harry, our lives have been employed in feeking and "loving the world "and the things of the world," therefore "the love of the Father could not be in "us." O, that I had never been born! Othou God, whofe tribunal, at this hour, is fet up fo tremendously against me; at length I feel the propriety of thy precepts, in rejecting the world and all that is therein; for what can they yield, save a little food and raiment to bodily corruption, or incitements to that pride which caft Lucifer into a gulph, that now opens before me without a bottom?

As I trembled and had nothing to an fwer, I propofed to bring fome of our clergy to him. No, Harry, no, says he, I will have none of their wordy comforts; I will not caft my foul upon bladdered expectations. Can they perfuade me that I am one of the few that are chosen; can they tell me wherein I have ftriven to enter at the ftrait gate, wherein many shall feck to enter but fhall not be able?

Here he funk into a fit of agonizing ́defperation, fo that a cold dew broke forth from all parts of his body, and fell, drop after drop, down his ghaftly and fearful countenance. Never, madam, never did I feel fuch a kind of anguishing horror as I then felt; I was affrighted and all frozen to my inmoft foul. Hafte, my dear Sir, exclaimed lady Maitland, make hafte through this part of your narration, I be feech you! I alfo feel for myfelf, I am terrified to the laft degree.

At length, continued Mr Clinton, I reollected myself a little. My mafter, I cried, my father, my deareft father, fince you will not take comfort in your own righteoufnefs, take comfort in that of him who was made righteoufnefs for you. Do you not now reject the world? do you not now deny yourself? I do, I do, he said,

I deteft the one and the other.

And do

you not feel that you are wholly a compound of fin and death? Ay, he cried, there is the weight, there is the mountain under which I fink for ever. Come then to Chrift, my father, heavy laden as you are, and he will, queftionless, embrace you and be reft to you, my father! I would come, Harry, he cried, but I dare not, I am not able. Strive, my father; do but turn to him, and he will more than meet you Cry out, with finking Peter," Save, Lord, or I perish!" and he will catch you with the hand of his ever-ready falvation.

Here his countenance began to fettle into an earneft compofure, and his eyes were turned and fixed upward; while his old and enfeebled body continued to Labour under the fymptoms of near dif folution. At length he started, and seizing my hand with a dying preffure,, There is comfort, Harry, there is com fort! he cried, and expired..

I was now caft, once more, upon a ftrange and friendlefs world. All the interetts of my heart were buried with this family; and i feemed to myself, as with out kindred or connexions in the midft of mankind. Your dear mamma, indeed,, fometimes called to condole with me, and

water my loffes with her tears; and in her, and you, my coufin, young as you then were, was locked up and centered the whole flock that I had left of endearing fenfations.

As the scenes of my former happiness ferved daily and nightly, to render me more wretched by a fad recollection, I determined to quit my house and to take private lodgings. For this purpose I fummoned Mr Golding's domeftics; and, as he had made no will, I firft paid them their wages, and then gave them fuch pretended legacies as brought their tears and their bleffings in a fhower upon me.

As foon as I had discharged all, except the two favourite fervants of my mafter and my Matty, I defired that John, our little old man, fhould be sent to me..

John, faid I, as he entered, here is a bill for five hundred pounds, which our good old mafter has left you, in token of his acknowledgement of your true and loving fervices, and to help, with what you have faved, to soften and make easy the bed of death in your old age. Do you mean to part with me, Sir? faid John, feemingly thanklefs and unconcerned about the gift which I had offered him. Indeed, John, faid 1, in my present ftate of dejection, attendance of any kiad would but be an incum

brance

brance to me. Then, Sir, you may keep your bounty to yourself, for I shall break my heart before five and twenty hours are over. Nay, John, faid I, I am far from turning you from me; ftay with me as my friend and welcome, but not as my fervant; and I fhall fee the comfort of old times in always feeing you about me. Thank you, thank you, Sir, he cried, I will not disturb you with my tears; but, I fhould die unbleffed, I fhould die unbleffed, if I died out of your prefence! fo faying, he rushed from me in a fit of reftrained paffion.

I then fent for my wife's maid, whom I formerly mentioned. She had just heard of my discharging the other fervants, and entered with a fad and alarmed countenance. Come near, Sufan, I am going to part with you, faid I; come to ine, and give me a farewel kifs. She approached with downcaft looks, when, taking her in my arms I preffed and kiffed her repeatedly, and fcarce witheld my tears. O, my girl, my Matty's precious girl, I cried, i an not forgetful of your love, your honour, and your difintereftednefs toward us. Here, my Sufy, your darling mitrefs. prefents you with this bill of a thousand pounds, and, if you choofe, I will give you cath for it within a quarter of an hour. This, now