ness in case he should call me away. I had little comfort in prayer, being sorely tempted with wandering thoughts; but after breakfast I got a clear sight of the beauty of holiness in heart and life, and hungered and thirsted after perfect conformity to God. I besought him to make me wholly his in soul, body, and spirit. I went out to see Lady Maxwell, and had much comfort in talking with her, and in prayer with her, and felt a union of heart with her that I experience with few. I have had some opportunities of speaking for God to-day; but have cause to blush for my silence this evening in a company of gay people. Lord, give me power to be faithful to thee at all times!

Thursday, January 31.-This morning I wrote down some heads of examination for every evening; but, alas! upon reviewing them at night, what cause have I to be ashamed! I cannot with a safe conscience answer them. I have at best done nothing this day; and as an idle unprofitable servant, must beg for mercy through the blood of Jesus. I have endeavoured to speak to God; but my lips were sealed. o Lord, how unfit am I for thy kingdom! O grant unto me more faith, more life, more love, and cover me with thy robe of righteousness, that I may stand complete in thee in the sight of a pure and holy God.

Lady Glenorchy to Lady Maxwell.

"February 5, 1771.

"My dear Madam,-I hope you are well. I would have called on you this day, had it not been so damp, as I am far from being well, and wish to keep from getting more cold, for fear of not getting to the Canongate Church on Sunday; and this would be a great

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disappointment to me, for my soul hungers and thirsts for this ordinance; and the Lord's words come often to my mind," With desire I have desired to eat this passover with you, before I suffer." I think it is possibly the last opportunity I may have. O that the Lord would make it a sealing time to his own children; and if it was his will to take me to himself, I think I could willingly at this time leave the world. No word yet of Mr De Courcy, nor any farther intelligence of Veritas. Lord Glenorchy suspects he has also written to Mr De C, to frighten him from coming to the family; and this is not improbable. I have many uneasy thoughts about this same Veritas; but I will endeavour to wait on the Lord,-very animating indeed are the promises to him that overcometh. Alas! I am overcome of every thing-I sink under a load of uneasy thoughts. I am ignorant, blind, and helpless ; sick in mind and body. All that I know is, that I ought not to trouble you with my distresses-you have your own portion to bear. I will, if the Lord enable me, endeavour for the future to speak no more of myself, except to God. If you can, remember me in your prayers. I am, in all situations and in all frames, my dear Madam, your obliged and affectionate,

W. G."

Thursday, February 7.—I rejoice in the view of the approaching ordinance, and went to church this day in hopes of a blessing; but all I heard seemed to make against me. When the minister spoke of an overzeal, I thought the word was pointed at me. When he spoke to sleepers and carnal secure sinners, I felt as if I were the person meant. I resolved to keep this day by fasting, but my body was so feeble that I could not do it. My ideas are so broken and dissi

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pated, that I can neither pray, read, or meditate with O Lord, thou knowest all my thoughts and my ways—nothing is hid from thee. Give me that faith, love, and strength which thou seest I stand in need of, and quicken my soul. Grant me the victory over all that opposeth my union with thee. Thy love is all I desire;-take from me whatever standeth in the way, and make me what thou wouldst have me to be, for thine own name's sake.

Friday, February 8.-This morning I heard an excellent sermon from Mr Walker, upon these words, "Wait upon God continually;" but my soul was dead, and it did not come with power to me. I had not the understanding heart.

Sunday, February 10.-This morning I got up early to call upon the Lord, and to seek his blessing this day at the sacrament. My spirits were composed, and my heart trusted in the Lord. I did not feel much joy while at the table, but was enabled to act faith on the righteousness of Christ, and commit my soul to him; and at coming away I felt much peace, joy, and delight in the Lord. I longed to praise him, and saw something of his unspeakable love in dying for sinners; and though I had not the full assurance of faith, nor any particular testimony from the Lord, of his acceptance of me, yet I had a firm persuasion of my calling, and that he would perfect the work he had begun in me. I saw myself far from the mark, but at the same time that I had begun the race; and I looked to Jesus to draw me on, and give me strength to finish my course with joy. I had much delight in singing his praises. Upon the whole, this has been the most comfortable communion I have had since the twentieth

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of May last. Blessed be the Lord, for refreshing my weary soul in this wilderness! O that I may never forget his mercies, but may go on from strength to strength, till I appear before him in Zion! I have been assaulted to-day by suggestions of different kinds, particularly by doubting whether the peace I enjoyed was not a false peace; but I got rid of them by looking to the Lord, and begging of him to keep me from temptation. I cannot think my peace is false. First, because I now have lower thoughts of myself than I had before I see that I am not worthy the name of a Christian. Secondly, I have a desire to pray, and resolve to spend more time in that delightful exercise than formerly. Thirdly, I feel more desire to confess Christ before men. Fourthly, I am more watchful over my heart, and more upon my guard, knowing how easily I am led away. Fifthly, I see my strength lieth only in Christ, and that it is by cleaving to him, and looking to him continually, that I can only hope for safety. Sixthly, That my peace proceedeth from seeing more of the love of God, in the sacrifice of his Son, than usual, and my heart in consequence thereof being drawn out to more confidence in him.

Tuesday, February 12.-I passed most of this day in great uneasiness from the fear of man. Mr De C. was expected, and I did not know how he would be received. I sought the Lord by groans that could not be uttered. Wonderfully has he helped me, and strengthened me in my soul. All things have turned out favourably. O, to have ever a single eye in all things to his glory!

Lady Glenorchy to Lady Maxwell.

My dear Madam,-Mr De Courcy arrived here this evening, and I have had a great deal of private

conversation with him. He is quite the person Mr Wesley represented him, of a sweet disposition, and wishes only to preach Christ to poor sinners, wherever he finds an open door. I have not as yet got an answer from Mr H., but I have, by a letter received from another quarter, some reason to think it very possible that cruel letter came from a different person,-I would gladly hope so. Beg of the Lord to direct us how to proceed with respect to St Mary's Chapel. We are poor blind creatures,-much need we have of wisdom from above; but the Lord is gracious, he surely will not forsake those who put their trust in him. I will endeavour to call upon you, and bring Mr De C. with me, to-morrow morning.-Yours affectionately, W. G."

Wednesday, February 13.--Mr De Courcy began today to expound in the family-the word seemed accompanied with power. I have been all day in great darkness. Satan seems to have set all his forces in array against me. But in the name of the Lord, I trust, he will be put to flight.