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seemed more than ordinarily attentive ; and when we were gone, she looked out very wistly after us, and said....I wish they would come again ! Her mother asked her why : Says she, I love to hear them talk !
She seems to have very much of the fear of God before her eyes, and an extraordinary dread of sin against him ; of which her mother mentioned the following remarkable instance. Some time in August, the last year, she went with some bigger children, to get some plumbs, in a neighbor's lot, knowing nothing of any harm in what she did ; but when she brought some of the plumbs into the house, her mother mildly reproved her, and told her, that she must not get plumbs without leave, because it was sin : God had commanded her not to steal.
The child seemed greatly surprised, and burst out into tears, and cried out....I will not have these plumbs ! And turning to her sister Eunice, very earnestly said to her ....why did you ask me to go to that plumb tree ? I should not have gone if you had not asked me. The other children did not seem to be much affected or concerned ; but there was no pacifying Phebe. Her mother told her she might go and ask leave, and then it would not be sin for her to eat them, and sent one of the children to that end ; and when she re. turnec, her mother told her that the owner had given leave, now she might eat them, and it would not be stealing. This stilled her a little while, but presently she broke out again into an exceeding fit of crying : Her mother asked her what made her cry again ? Why she cried now, since they had asked leave? What it was that troubled her now? And asked her several tímes very earnestly, before she made any answer ; but at last, said it was because....BECAUSE IT WAS SIN. She continued a considerable time crying ; and said she would not go again if Eunice asked her an hundred times ; and she retained her aversion to that fruit for a considerable time, under the remembrance of her former sin.
She, at some times, appears greatly affected and delighted with texts of scripture that come to her mind. Particularly, about the beginning of November, the last year, that text came to her mind, Rev. iii. 20. Behold I stand at the door and knock : If any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in, and sup with him and he with me. She spoke of it to those of the family, with a great appearance of joy, a smiling countenance, and elevation of voice, and afterwards she went into another room, where her mother overheard her talking very earnestly to the children about it, and particularly heard her say to them, three or four times over, with an air of exceeding joy and admiration.... Why it is to SUP WITH GOD. At some time about the middle of winter, very late in the night, when all were in bed, her mother perceived that she was awake, and heard her as though she was weeping. She called to her, and asked her what was the matter. She answered with a low voice, so that her mother could not hear what she said ; but thinking it might be occasioned by some
l spiritual affection, said no more to her ; but perceived her to ' lie awake, and to continue in the same frame for a considerable time. The next morning she asked her whether she did not cry the last night : The child answered yes, I did cry a little, for I was thinking about God and Christ, and they loved me. Her mother asked her, whether to think of God and Christ's loving her made her cry : She answered yes, it does sometimes.
She has often manifested a great concern for the good of other souls ; and has been wont, many times, affectionately to counsel the other.children. Once about the latter end of September, the last year, when she and some others of the children were in a room by themselves a husking Indian corn, the child, after a while, came out and sat by the fire.
Her mother took notice that she appeared with a more than ordinary serious and pensive countenance, but at last she broke silence, and said I have been talking to Nabby and Eunice. Her mother asked her what she had said to them. Why, said she, I told them they must pray, and prepare to die, that they had but a little while to live in this world, and they must be always ready. When Nabby came out, her mother asked her whether she had said that to them. Yes, said she, she said that and a great deal more. At other times the child took her opportunities to talk to the other children about the
great concern of their souls ; sometimes so as much to affect them, and set them into tears. She was once exceeding importunate with her mother to go with her sister Naomi to pray : Her mother endeavored to put her off, but she pulled her by the sleeve, and seemed as if she would by no means be denied. At last her mother told her, that Amy must go and pray herself ; but, said the child, she will not go, and persisted earnestly to beg of her mother to go with her.
She has discovered an uncommon degree of a spirit of charity, particularly on the following occasion : A poor man that lives in the woods, had lately lost a cow that the family much depended on, and being at the house, he was relating his misfortune, and telling of the straits and difficulties they were reduced to by it. She took much notice of it, and it wrought exceedingly on her compassions ; and after she had attentively heard him a while, she went away to her father, who was in the shop, and intreated him to give that man a cow ; and told him that the poor man had no cow! That the hunters or something else had killed his cow! And intreated him to give him one of theirs. Her father told her that they could not spare one. Then she intreated him to let him and his family come and live at his house ; and had much talk of the same nature, whereby she manifested bowels of compassion to the poor.
She has manifested great love to her minister; particularly when I returned from my long journey for my health, the Jast fall, when she heard of it, she appeared very joyful at the news, and told the children of it with an elevated voice, as the most joyful tidings, repeating it over and over, Mr. Edwards is come home! Mr. Edwards is come home! She still continues very constant in secret prayer, so far as can be observed, (for she seems to have no desire that others should observe her when she retires, but seems to be a child of a reserved temper) and every night before she goes to bed will say her catechism, and will by no means miss of it : She never forgot it but once, and then after she was a bed, thought of it and cried out in tears....I have not said my catechism ! And would not be quieted till her mother asked her the catechism as she lay in bed, She sometimes appears to be in doubt
about the condition of her soul, and when asked whether she thinks that she is prepared for death, speaks something doubt. fully about it: At other times seems to have no doubt, but when asked, replies yes, without hesitation.
In the former part of this great work of God amongst us, till it got to its height, we seemed to be wonderfully smiled upon and blessed in all respects. Satan (as has been already observed) seemed to be unusually restrained : Persons that before had been involved in melancholy, seemed to be as it were waked up out of it, and those that had been entangled with extraordinary temptations, seemed wonderfully to be set at liberty, and not only so, but it was the most remarkable time of health that ever I knew since I have been in the town. We ordinarily have several bills put up, every sabbath, for persons that are sick, but now we have not so much as one tor many sabbaths together. But after this it seemed to be otherwise, when this work of God appeared to be at its greatest height. A poor weak man that belongs to the town, being in great spiritual trouble, was hurried with violent temptations to cut his own throat, and made an attempt, but did not do it effectually. He after this continued a considerable time exceedingly overwhelmed with melancholy, but has now, of a long time, been very greatly delivered, by the light of God's countenance lifted up upon him, and has expressed a great sense of his sin in so far yielding to temptation, and there are in him all hopeful evidences of his having been made a subject of saving mercy.
In the latter part of May, it began to be very sensible that the spirit of God was gradually withdrawing from us, and after this time Satan seemed to be niore let loose, and raged in a dreadful manner. The first instance wherein it appeared, was a person's putting an end to his own life, by cutting his throat. He was a gentleman of more than common under. standing, of strict morals, religious in his behavior and an useful, honorable person in the town.... But was of a family that are exceeding prone to the disease of melancholy, and his mother was killed with it. He had, from the beginning of this extraordinary time, been exceedingly concerned about the
state of his soul, and there were some things in his expe. rience, that appeared very hopefully, but he durst entertain no hope concerning his own good estate. Towards the latter part of his time, he grew much discouraged, and melancholy grew amain upon him, till he was wholly overpowered by it, and was in great measure, past a capacity of receiving advice, or being reasoned with to any purpose : The devil took the advantage, and drove him into despairing thoughts. He was kept awake a nights, meditating terror, so that he had scarce any sleep at all, for a long time together. And it was obsery. ed at last, that he was scarcely well capable of managing his ordinary business, and was judged delirious by the coroner's inquest. The news of this, extraordinarily affected the minds of people here, and struck them as it were with astonishment, After this, multitudes in this and other towns seemed to have it strongly suggested io them, and pressed upon them, to do as this person had done, And many that seemed to be under no melancholy, some pious persons, that had no special darkness or doubts about the goodness of their state, nor were up. der any special trouble or concern of mind about any thing spiritual or temporal, yet had it urged upon them, as if some. body had spoken to them, Cut your own throat, now is a good opportunity. Now! Now ! So that they were obliged to fight with all their might to resist it, and yet no reason suggested to them why they should do it.
About the same time, there were two remarkable instances of persons led away with strange enthusiastic delusions : One at Suffield, and another at South Hadley : That which has made the greatest noise in the country was of the man at South Hadley, whose delusion was, that he thought himself divinely instructed to direct a poor man in melancholy and despairing circumstances, to say certain words in prayer to God, as recorded in Psal. cxvi. 4, for his own relief. The man is esteemed a pious man : I have, since this error of his, had a particular acquaintance with him, and, I believe, none would question his piety, that had had such an acquaintance, He gave me a particular account of the manner how he was deluded, which is too long to be here inscrted. But, in short,