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Loveg. O Sir! she was nearly as much affected as she was on the Wednesday evening, when we first arrived : her anxiety to attend militated so strongly against the sense of shame.--I therefore thought it best to advise her father to lay his injunctions upon her not to come to Church on that Sunday, as she would have been a public spectacle to all the congregation.
Mrs. Wor. Certainly, it was the best advice, though the shame she felt is neither to be lamented nor wondered at. Indeed I always thought this the best evidence that her repentance was genuine.
Loveg. That it certainly was. The Apostle speaks of those things, whereof the really converted Christian is now ashamed; and that they shall be made to know that it is “even a shame to speak of those things done of them in secret." I even suspect the genuine repentance of those, who seem to express themselves with a degree of carnal indifference, respecting their old sins, under a vain confidence, that they are now forgiven. I wish such sort of believers would but recollect, that there is such a grace as
Repentance towards God," as well as "Faith towards our Lord Jesus Christ." God never gave the one without the other as its constant concomitant. I hope, notwithstanding, Mrs. Chipman will soon have sufficient evidence to believe that God has forgiven her ; though I am sure she will never forgive herself.
Mrs. Wor. But how did she bear the sight of her child, which according to promise, was to be introduced the next morning?
Loveg. Why, madam, while we were at breakfast, Mr. Reader went out and brought it in; one of the most lovely, cheerful babes, I think I ever beheld, springing in its nurse's arms, and sweetly smiling at its grandfather. He took and placed it upon the mother's lap, she looked at it, watered it with her tears, affectionately embraced
it, and then began quoting that text which had so impressed her mind : “ Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb !” and then quite fainted away. The child was taken from her, and as soon as she was able, she was led up into her chamber, where she continued most of the day.
Wor. What misery this poor creature has entailed upon her own mind ! But did she make any further efforts to surmount her feelings, as it respected her child?
Loveg. Yes, Sir, I believe several. But every attempt she made, was with the same cutting reflections against herself. Sir, we who are blessed with children, and with a parental love towards them, may judge what she felt, when she was recovered by the grace of God, from the brutalized state of mind which possessed her, while she was captivated by that unprincipled monster of iniquity. However, towards the latter end of my stay, she would now and then attempt to smile on her child, while
every smile returned by the child would be sure to bring a fresh tear from her eye.
Wor. It will be well, if the child does not lose both its parents by the same event.
Loveg. Sometimes I fear this will be the case ; at other times I have my hopes that she will still survive her grief. I requested Mr. Reader to set her about some household affairs, and to try to divert her attention by the use of the needle, and this was done with some success. Though frequently while she was at her work, she would bedew it with her tears, till completely overcome by the recollection of her former misconduct; she would then entirely lay her work aside, and again give way to the extreme grief of her mind.
Wor. It must have been exceedingly distressing to her
Mr. Worthy.-How did she bear the sight of the child?
Mr. Lovegood.-Why, sir, while we were at breakfast, Mr. Reader went out, and brought it in: one of the most lovely cheerful babes, I think, I ever beheld, springing in its nurse's arms, and sweetly smiling at its grandfather. He took and placed it upon the mother's lap.--She looked at it, watered it with her tears, affectionately embraced it, and then began quoting that text, “Cap a woman forsake her sucking child,” &c.
C. Whiltingham, College House, Chiswick.
poor father, to have seen her overpowered by such excessive grief.
Loveg. The grief of the parent was nearly equal to that of the daughter, though he exemplified astonishing patience on the occasion. All his affection seems entirely restored; he now loves her as much as ever he once could blame her. It is amazing, what the forgiving love and converting grace of God does on the hearts of all the children of God.
Wor. Did she not in any degree recover her spirits while you were there?
Loveg. I humbly trust she did ; there were such cheering prospects of good, which attended the divine services on the Sunday, as revived the hearts of all ; though my final departure from Locksbury exceedingly depressed her spirits.
Wor. That must have been a very trying moment between
both. Loveg. I am sure, Sir, I could not have sustained the concluding interview without a very considerable injury to her feelings and my own ; I therefore took my farewell by sending her a letter, and at the same time I composed for her a penitential hymn.
Mrs. Wor. Do, Sir, let us see a copy of it.
Loveg. O madam, my poor rhymes scarcely deserve the name of poetry; if I had by me a correct copy, it would not be worth your perusal.
Mrs. Wor. Leave us to judge of that; we must hear it.
After much persuasion, Mr. Lovegood submitted. He is a man of uncommon modesty, though of considerable ability. He lives much as Moses did, on the mount with God; and as this made Moses's face to shine, “ though he wist not that his face shone," when