The Journal of the Rev. John Wesley

This historic book may have numerous typos and missing text. Purchasers can usually download a free scanned copy of the original book (without typos) from the publisher. Not indexed. Not illustrated. 1827 edition. Excerpt: ... to preach no more. At St. Antholiu's I preached on the Thursday following. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, I had continual sorrow and heaviness in my heart; something of which I described, in the broken manner I was able, in the following letter to a friend: -- "O why is it, that so great, so wise, so holy a God will use such an instrument as me! Lord, 1 let the dead bury their dead!' But wilt thou send the dead to raise the dead? Yea, thou sendest whom thou wilt send, and showest mercy by whom thou wilt show mercy! Amen! Be it then according to thy will! If thou speak the word, Judas shall cast out devils. "I feel what you say, (though not enough, ) for I am under the same condemnation. I see that the whole law of God is holy, just, and good. I know every thought, every temper of my soul, ought to bear God's image and superscription. But how am I fallen from the glory of God! I feel that' I am sold under sin.' 1 know that I, too, deserve nothing but wrath, being full of all abominations; and having no good thing in me, to atone for them, or to remove the wrath of God. All my works, my righteousness, Kit prayers, need an atonement for themselves. So that my mouth is stopped. I have nothing to plead. God is holy; I am unholy. God is a consuming fire; I am altogether a sinner, meet to be consumed. "Yet I hear a voice (and is it not the voice of God ? ) saying, * Believe, and thou shalt be saved. He that believeth is passed from death unto life. God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him, should not perish, but have everlasting life.' "O let no one deceive us by vain words, as if we had already attained this faith !* By its fruits we shall know. Do we already feel 'peace with God, ' and 'joy in...