felt rather uneasy in leaving our own meeting, which brought me into deep contrition. O, may I ever cherish this religious sensibility. The Lord was pleased in great condescension to visit me in my low estate, reviving my faith and hope in him. Dear Mary and Jane appeared excellently, though in a close line. Returned to our evening meeting, which also proved a season of refreshment.

18. I accompanied my dear father to Alton, where we again met with our dear friends Mary Ridgway and Jane Watson.

19. Was at a meeting appointed for the aforesaid friends: I sat down in much weakness and emptiness; yet being enabled to maintain the warfare, truth arose into dominion in my heart before silence was broken. Before we parted were favoured with a sweet cementing opportunity, in which dear Mary appeared in testimony, and hearttendering supplication that the Lord would be pleased to be with them in the way they should go, and also with us that staid behind; and that we might be as epistles written in each others hearts.

21. Came home, had a pleasant safe journey; renewed cause of thankfulness.

25. My dear father not quite so well my fears much alarmed; yet endeavoured to keep quiet, and near that Rock, which alone supports under every trial.

27. My beloved father feeling himself poorly,

concluded not to go to meeting; but afterwards went, and I with him: though late, it proved a season of divine refreshment; silent as to words.

30. Tried with the heat of the weather: yet several times in the day felt the attractive influence of divine love; so that I trust I am not forsaken. Encouraging belief!

SEVENTH MONTH, 1794.

1. Some trials of patience occurred; which I did not bear with that meekness I might have done: O, for an increase of it as well as of every other virtue; surely I stand much in need of it, and it is often the engagement of my mind to press. after it.

6. Set off at half past four o'clock for our quarterly meeting; got there but a little before meeting, had not time sufficient to refresh ourselves, and the weather extremely hot, so that it was no easy matter to get my mind sufficiently abstracted from outward things: yet was not wholly forsaken by the Shepherd of Israel, who is still watching over his little ones with a fatherly kindness; were favoured with the company of several valuable friends..

7. A precious season to-day to my poor soul: in which my strength and confidence in the Lord was renewed: notwithstanding the extreme heat

of the weather and smallness of the meeting-house. Dear Thomas Scattergood attended with many other valuable friends: I was enabled to get through the business to my humble admiration, yet trust the praise was rendered where it was alone due, well knowing from whence ability was received. Set out for home in the evening, which we did not reach till midnight.

13. Though I sat down much emptied of all good this morning at meeting, yet was the Lord graciously pleased as formerly to fill the empty vessel. The evening meeting poorly attended, and alas! but too few of the few, I fear, spiritually awake, so as to unite in labour for the arising of life.

15. Feeling the bubblings up of the wellspring of life this evening, I retired into the gar den, where I was enabled to sing unto it: inesti- mable favour!

NINTH MONTH, 1794.

27. Have been confined eight weeks this day with a nervous fever; seven of which to my chamber, and mostly to my bed. The forepart of my illness was tried with poverty of spirit; my mind seeming to partake of the weakness of my body, so that I had scarcely strength to look towards the Lord's holy habitation. Yet I have reason to believe he was not unmindful of me;

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for one night when I could not sleep from extreme restlessness, and feeling, as I apprehended, the disorder increasing on me, I felt more than common anxiety as to the event: desiring if the solemn change was near, I might have an evidence of it. In that trying season, it was graciously intimated that, however my sickness terminated, it would be well with me. I write not this boastingly; but then, as well as now, was deeply humbled under a sense of my own unworthiness of so great a favour. Yet it was an anchor to my soul, not only at that time, but during the rest of my illness, forbidding every anxious thought, and increasing my faith and confidence in His holy name, who is for ever worthy to be feared and praised. And now he hath been graciously pleased to restore in some degree my health and strength, which increases daily, may I be enabled, through his holy assistance, to live to his honour, who hath thus poured unnumbered blessings on my head: yet I am often led to feel, and at times to mourn, my lukewarmness and my proneness to enter too. much into the spirit of this world; so that I see our blessed Lord's injunction, to watch and pray, was never more necessary than at the present time.

TENTH MONTH, 1794.

6. (Alton) Several days have again elapsed without any remark, partly owing to indisposition,

partly to want of suitable opportunity. I have still, at times, to lament my lukewarmness, at others have been favoured with the fresh descendings of heavenly rain, to the great refreshment of my weary mind. O, that increasing fruitfulness may appear. During this time my dear aunt Townsend departed this life, at Edinburgh, where she was on a religious visit.

13. This day my beloved father was seized with an apoplectic fit; under which severe trial I was supported beyond expectation: and through divine favour, before night, he was so far recovered as to speak.

14. My dear father much better. Thomas Scattergood paid a religious visit to our family; which was a stengthening opportunity to my poor weak mind; what abundant cause of thankfulness does each day afford !

16. Have been humbled to-day under an apprehension that my gratitude for past favours has not been enough lively, and that I have been too much off my watch to-day.

31. Favoured with near access to the throne of grace this morning in our silent gathering at meeting; and comforted in the renewed belief, that the glory is not yet departed from our Israel.

ELEVENTH Month, 1794.

2. Sat down at meeting this morning in much