sembled the inn of old, being taken up with many guests, yet I would hope not to the entire exclusion of the blessed babe.

12. My mind a little strengthened and animated to press forward, by reading the experienee of a faithful servant of the Lord.

13. A time of sore conflict at meeting; yet, being reduced to a child-like state, methought I was permitted to approach Him who said, "Suffer "little children to come unto me, and forbid "them not.".

16. Taken up these few days past, attending a dying friend: though my feelings were tried, yet I thought the Comforter was near, preserving our minds in a degree of sweet composure; believing that when the conflict with death was over, the grave could have no victory; the sting being taken away.

18. I was much humbled at meeting this morning, under the prospect of desolation in our Zion. How few, how very few, burthen bearers. Was desirous that I might be fitted for one, and not shrink from it.

20. A time of much favour this morning at meeting; yea my cup was made to overflow. The Lord's banner over me was love, and his fruit was sweet to my taste. How unworthy such adorable condescension! In the afternoon some conflict with the spirit of heaviness, but, through mercy, was enabled to overcome it.

24. A day of much bustle, yet found a little

leisure to retire out of it; and centering down to the pure gift, my mind was sweetly refreshed under a sense of the Lord's continued goodness to one so unworthy.

27. Our preparative meeting, and though my mind was led into mourning at the low state of our discipline, yet thought it a season of renewed favour.

FOURTH MONTH, 1791.

3. Our quarterly meeting began. My mind was affected on seeing a remarkable change in a young man, who I believe had entertained notions bordering on deism, and I was led in silence to adore that goodness, which had thus mercifully extended this extraordinary visitation to him. "Joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that 66 repenteth more than over ninety and nine just

persons:" and surely every sensible mind that is witness to it is made a partaker in this joy. Blessed privilege!

4. To-day, in the meeting for discipline, I was called upon to expose myself as clerk, none else being willing. It was with much fear and trembling that I submitted.

7. My mind sweetly drawn this morning into silence, where I was favoured to experience that

They that wait upon the Lord shall renew "their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary,

"and they shall walk and not faint." O, to be enabled to hold on my way.

II. Wrote a letter to a young woman, who is apparently hastening fast to her dissolution. Was fearful she did not think so herself. She received it kindly. O, that it may induce her to turn inward, and see how her accounts stand.

13. Too much encumbered about many things, some of which did not materially concern me. Was taken in the night with such a violent palpitation of the heart, that I scarcely expected to survive the struggle; but thou, O Lord, wast near me, and sustainedst me, and in adorable mercy heardest and relievedst me. O, make me thankful enough, and humble enough.

14. Low and humble to-day, and desirous of being kept so. In the evening met with a severe shock to my feelings.

17. A time of travail in the morning; yet secret counsel was vouchsafed; for which I was humbly thankful. They that would be espoused to Christ must be chaste, both in thought, word, and deed, and entertain nothing that would defile the temple which he is pleased at times to visit.

18. On a review of this day, I feel no condemnation; but hope I have been enabled to step along safely.

21. Conscious of some weakness. Paid visit to a friend in affliction, in which I had satisfaction.

22. While waiting this morning at meeting,

as I thought, at Wisdom's gate, an unexpected and strong temptation was presented to my mind by the grand adversary; but I trust I did not in any measure join in therewith: and my secret cry to the Lord was for preservation, and that he would be pleased, in his infinite mercy, rather to cut short the thread of my life, than that I should live to dishonour his holy name. Oh, the distress it brought, lest I should be separated from the love of God!

23. My mind renewedly humbled, under a sense of my own weakness, and the subtilty of the unwearied adversary; of which I had a painful proof yesterday. O, to be enabled to draw near him, who can alone preserve from the devourer. 26. This day much given up to family concerns and company, I think I may say in a cross to my own will, feeling some pantings after heavenly bread. A little refreshment before I retired to rest. Oh, the privilege of reposing our cares. in Him, who alone is able to sustain the poor drooping soul amidst the many conflicts it has had to encounter, in its passage to (I trust) a better country!

30. Though a silent meeting, yet to my mind a very favoured one, far beyond my deserts: yet towards the conclusion, attacked with sleepiness; which I had reason to fear had prevailed with some, much to their hurt. Oh, the supineness and indifference of some who ought, from their advanced age, to stand as pillars in the church, and

strengthen the weak hands of us who are so much younger!

FIFTH MONTH, 1791.

3. A wrong disposition got up this morning, (even something of murmuring and complaining) on comparing my situation with some others who are more favoured with the company of valuable friends. Was thankful to feel it corrected, and self brought into abasement, on considering the many blessings I enjoy beyond thousands; and that the best of teachers, who can never be removed into a corner, is ever near, and all-sufficient to those that trust in him. Surely he hath dealt bountifully with me, far beyond my deserts. How ungrateful then to repine at his dispensations! O, my soul, be thy clothing dust and ashes.

4. More quiet and comfortable to-day, but no time for retirement till after I went to bed; when I sought Him whom my soul loveth; and he was pleased to refresh my wearied soul.

8. A favoured time at meeting. How is the Lord pleased, at times, to make the desert blossom as the rose !

9. Poorly in health, and apprehensive by my feelings that I should be quite ill; yet favoured with resignation to whatever the Lord shall be pleased to dispense, either sickness or health, believing it will be all ordered in best wisdom.

10. Better to-day, which is cause of thankful