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That I before had kindled in thy breast;
And so My Peter's every one was cast:
Because that Peter he did ME deny,

And so My bride have turn'd it back that way,
For all the Peter's she denied the same-
Men fled from Me-and thou hast fled the same,
To turn it back that way by every man-
For mark, when Peter did again return,
That had deny'd, as I had fix'd the mark,
And know the time, and bring the every spark
That was of love, kindl'd again in he;
But then thy answer let them all to see-

"If he was better to them he might go, Thou would never waste his love, thou told'st him so, To hurt himself, and back to thee to come,

If he was great; thou told'st him thou wast grand."
And now I tell them, grand I will appear;
And all My boasting Peters tell them here

Unto the skies they've swell'd their wisdom high-
And now I tell them they'll fall back this way:
Because the upright man thou can'st not find,
For to seek out their SAVIOUR's heart and mind;
Unless the Noahs they do all appear,

And say we'll turn and try her heart once more;-
Before by Noah sure the thing was done-
I tell them plain thy History must go on;-
In every truth thy History must appear;
Because the Likeness I'll in all compare,
You know at first how that you two did part,
When Jealousy had wound'd thy tender heart."

Continuation of Joanna's History.

"As I am called to write the particulars, that all may be explained, I shall mention what I have omitted before we parted for good. There was a young woman in Sidmouth, Captain Wickers's daughter, who was almost mad about Noah Bishop,

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and would follow him wherever he went; when he did go to Sidmouth Town, one Sunday, she followed him upon thee beach, and followed him part of the way home, and he stood talking with her. A friend of mine passed them by, and came and told me of it. This fired my soul with jealousy and, as soon as I saw him enter the yard, I went immediately up stairs. He came and enquired of my sister for me. She told him I was gone up stairs, because I refused to see him; for, that I had desired her to tell him, that where he had been ALREADY, he might go again, along with Fanny Wickers. He declared to my sister, he could not bear her; and, though she followed him, he hated her, and believed her a very bad, loose girl; but, as she had followed him, he was obliged to stop and speak with her: but this excuse. did not do for me. My heart burned with jealousy: and, in my passion, I said, I would not come down for the night; neither did I the next day. I thought, if what he said was real, he would come as usual, when I was milking, as he knew I could not shun him then; but, to my astonishment, he did not come: this fired my heart with indignation, for I thought my jealousy was without a cause. The next day, I went to my father's at Getsham, and Noah came and pleaded his cause again with my Sister, who told him I was more confirmed in my opinion than ever; and she was gone to Getsham to my Father's. He said, well then I will soon be after her, for I will go and and see her, and convince her, that I hate Fanny Wichers. My Sister told him he need not go to Getsham to see me, for I should return again the latter end of the week. He said, then he would wait till my return. I returned home on the Saturday night, but as soon

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as he came into the house on the Sunday, I fled from him as beforè; but in the evening when I went to milking I saw him standing at the Orchard Gate, as he knew I could go no other way; he had an halter in his hand, and said, he had been down to turn the Sheep out of the Orchard, and put in the Colt, and he would not let me go till he had convinced me of his dislike to Fanny Wickers, and that I was the only Woman in the World that he loved. I told him, if what he said was TRUE, he would have come on the Monday night to convince me of the Truth, and not have staid away as he did; for I supposed he was with her then. He assured me to the contrary; for his father had sent him in the morning all over Bulverton Hill to find the colts, and he had come round two or three times to my brother's grounds, in hopes of seeing me watering the bullocks, which I very often used to do at noon, as there was no water in the field; but he had missed the time that I came, and made it so late before he could find his horses, that he did not return home till after night; and to prove the truth of what he said, he could bring his brother Nathaniel, William Prince, Richard Isaac, and many others, to testify the truth of what he said; and his brother, and William Prince, did. testify the truth: so I gave up all my jealousy in this matter, before it came to be alarmed another way, by people's saying, that he would break my heart in a twelve-month if I had him, which brought the sorrows upon me, as is mentioned in my history: but, as all particulars must be explained, I shall notice one further. His wife that is now, and I, were intimately acquainted: and, one Sunday, when she came into the house, I told him

that she should be his wife. In a contemptuous manner, he said, he did not like her: but, years after, when he courted her, I was in company with him at a reaping-harvest, and there was a woman there that said her name was Anne. He said, Oh, Anne! I love the name of Anne-and now I may say the same of my dear SAVIOUR, that I have been so often jealous of, fearing HE would let the gates of hell prevail against me; but now I know none can pluck me out of His Hand and now I will say, with David, "if I am vile, I will still be viler," and prove the truth that the Bible is clear, and the truth of His words are true to me.

Though I'm unworthy, and of merit none;
I see the merit in my SAVIOUR's groans.
I see the merit doth in HIM appear,
Unworthy I his hand or heart to share;
Because my jealousy so wrong have been,
As 'twas by Noah now to me is seen.
And all my passions open now anew,
I see my SAVIOUR's words in all are true;
That of my jealousy I may complain,
To let my heart be so enrag'd by men.
It is the Harlots that have me provok'd;
It is the Harlots that did cause the stroke.
To cause the jealousy by my weak hand,
When I did sign the folly of a man,
That said from hell the writings did appear,
And by his wisdom he'd destroy them there.
But by his wisdom this he could not do;
He's just like Fann the Harlot in my view;
64 Because a Harlot she by man was plac'd,
For so they said her roving heart did burst
To every man; that she thought she could gain,
And now the empty world I see as plain,
That they are roving after pleasures here,
And every vanity their hearts ensnare.

Widows sorrows.

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And so my heart they thought to tear that way,
Because I knew there came my Jealousy-
Because professed Christians stood before,
And made me judge my SAVIOUR'S LORD was there
And that his promises to me HE would forsake,
And that's the way my Jealousy did break;
But curst tormentors now your rage is o'er,
Your fury can no more from hell appear,
With all the arts that now are in your view;
I see my SAVIOUR, and I see him true,
Doth in this Fable strong to me appear:
I see this Likeness-and I FEEL it here.
And now your fury shall no further

go,
To say my LORD will fill my heart with woe.
No, him I'll trust, and give both heart and hand;
I see myself doth in this fable stand-

I see my LORD in Noah to appear;

Not all the arts of hell shall now appear,
To make me ever grieve my Dying LORD:
I'll trust His honor, and I'll trust his word-
For all my passions they are open here,
Much stronger for my SAVIOUR to appear,
Than ere in youth they did appear for man;
I'd sooner die, than now give up my hand
To any wretch, that shall against Him speak-
No, No, my heart in sunder you may break,
To kill my honor, and despise my fame;
To say thy MAKER thou doth boldly name,
To be my husband, and the Lord of hosts,
I tell you plain in Noah it is plac'd:
Because the shadow there is in the man;
But in my youth I was forsaken then,
Grieved in spirit I did then appear,

Worse than a widow's was my sorrows there→→
And 'twas pretended Friends brought on that woe,
And now pretended Friends the same I know,
Within my heart these daggers all would place;
And the last error fata'ler than the first-
Then now, ye cursed tyrants! look and see,
If you once more can break the heart of me;
Just like the devils you must all appear,
And worse than serpents for to sting me here.

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