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lost and perishing soul can heartily I hope your dear partner is well.


'Other refuge have I none,

Hangs my helpless soul on thee.'

How sweet is a free, full, and an everlasting salvation, to such a needy helpless soul as mine, my soul proclaims, none but Christ, none but Christ. I often look back, to when God in his tender mercy, first opened my eyes, which was, about four or five years before you knew me, and you have known in some measure, the things God has done for my soul, but was I this moment on my death-bed, I do honestly and humbly declare in the presence of an heart-searching God (forgetting all I ever passed through, in comforts or distress) I declare that my helpless soul in all her filth and misery, rests her eternal all, both for grace and glory, on the person, work, blood, and righteousness of the Lord Jesus Christ: upon this rock, hangs my eternal all, I have no other hope or rest, nor do I want any; any one is welcome to profession, or possession, let me have a precious Christ and all the rest may go, for sure I am,

'None but Jesus,

Can do helpless sinners good.'

I was glad to hear that matters are going on well with some of you. Mr. S's testimony refreshed my heart. May the dear Lord in much mercy be a spirit of wisdom and revelation unto you, to keep you from false ways and evil works, and work in you that which is well pleasing in his sight, and reveal unto your precious souls, the abundance of grace and truth, which is in Christ, over and above our every folly and every fault. Give my love to P. and T. and all the friends. I really long at times, to be with you, knowing in my very soul, I shall spend an eternity with many of you, to sing, "Worthy is the Lamb that was slain and hath redeemed us

May the dear Lord open her eyes more and more to a keen sense of her lost undone estate by nature, give her a heart to seek his dear face, and make himself precious in her sight, and never suffer her to rest in any thing short of himself alone. I shall write soon to some of the friends, accept my kind unfeigned regards, and believe me to remain, your's in truth and love, Wallingford.



"I, even I, am he that blotteth out thy

transgressions for mine own sake, and will

not remember thy sins," Isaiah xliii. 25.

My very dear christian brother and sister, in union bond with our glorious Jesus, who is the great speaker in the words just referred to, who is properly and truly God, and I shall, dear reader, if so be you are one who loves Jesus on account of what he hath done for thee, and in thee, just speak a little of him, as known and realized in my heart, and when the Lord was pleased to reveal himself, and where, is still precious to my soul, and I do believe, my dear Lord will never let me forget it; the first portion of his dear word, which broke in on my soul was, that in Isaiah ix. 5. "For unto us a child is born, unto us a Son is given, and the government shall be upon his shoulders, and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, Mighty God, the Everlasting Father, and the Prince of peace." Prior to this from my dim-sightedness, I entertained many imperfect views of the person of Jesus Christ, and was stantly wrangling with the language of Watts, where he saith,



"Well might the sun in darkness hide, And shut its glories in;

When God the mighty maker died, For man, the creature's sin."

unto God, by his own precious blood.". And I went on fighting against it,


till the Lord was well pleased to speak out his word, with power to my heart, and my heart melted under his word; the child born, and Son given, much arrested my mind, and then followed the remaining part of the portion, which assured my heart, that the child born, and Son given, is properly and truly, the Mighty God; aud then my dear Lord still confirmed it more in the language of the Holy Ghost, by Zechariah xiii. 7. "Awake O sword, against my shepherd, and against the man that is my fellow, saith the Lord of Hosts ;" who himself in his one glorious person, was man of sorrows and acquainted with grief, and also wept at the grave of Lazarus; and even then he was Jesus Christ underived, the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever. The divine nature in union with the nature of the church, the eternal word, which was made flesh, God manifest in the flesh; he was found in fashion as a man, yet saith the Holy Ghost, the God of the whole earth shall he be called, in oneness, and equal with Jehovah the Father, and eternal Spirit; how king Solomon was led into the sweet secret for himself, Prov, viii. 30. where our head Christ saith, Then I was by him, as one brought up with him, and I was daily his delight, rejoicing always before him;" this proves to us the eternity of the person of our glorious Christ, in oneness of existence with the Father, do mark this word, "in the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God;" and then consider in connection with the whole, Matthew i. 23. Behold a virgin shall be with child, and shall bring forth a son, and they shall call his name Emmanuel, which being interpreted, is God with us," and he is the second Adam, not the man, but the Lord from heaven, properly and truly man, and properly and truly God, Jehovah Jesus, who told Moses, that he was the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, the I

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AM, THAI I AM; and how solemn the declaration of our glorious Jesus, if ye believe not that I am he, ye shall die in your sins;" dear brother and sister, to know Christ experimentally in the heart by faith, is to have eternal life, and to be destitute of him, is to be destitute of that life, Jesus gives his dear sheep, for, saith Jesus, I know my sheep, and am known of mine, and I give unto them eternal life, and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand; and if you just turn to John xvii. 2, 3, verses, you will find what that eternal life is, for there our dear Christ, in addressing his di vine Father saith, as thou hast given him power over all flesh, that he should give eternal life to as many as thou has given him; and this is life eternal, that they might know thee, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom thou hast sent;" this same Jesus whom with wicked hands, they have taken, crucified, and slain, according to the determinate counsel, and foreknowledge of God, is my God, Jehovah, Jesus Christ in whom dwelleth all the fulness of the Godhead bodily, my rock, my salvation, and eternal life; who though he was found in fashion as a man, thought it not robbery to be equal with God. and by him I have the knowledge of the forgiveness of sins. And be it remembered, that Jehovah hath not merely drawn a cross over them, but blotted them out. Here is a most blessed testimony of the Lord himself, I, even I am he who blotteth out their sins, or transgressions for mine own sake." Now just carry the idea for a moment to the act of blotting out, for when this is done it cannot be brought forward again. If a man when he has settled an account, blots it out,he can never more see what it was, be there ever so great a willingness in him to do so, and Jehovah declares that he will not; so that the iniquities of God's elect family are all blotted out by himself, Jehovah hath

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done it, and that for ever. mercy, that sin, with all its power and guilt, is destroyed by our glorious Jehovah Jesus, who trod the winepress alone, and of the people there was none with him; he took the cup from the hand of his divine Father, which might not pass from him, a cup filled with dregs of eternal death, he swallowed up for his dear children. Thus he made an end of sin by the sacrifice of himself, and not a part of himself, but himself, on the tree, who has been the plague of death, and the destruction of the grave, so that sin with all its guilt, death with all its horror, and the grave, is destroyed by Jesus Christ, my Friend and Brother, in dear covenant union, and the knowledge of this in my soul makes me love and adore him who is my all and in all, so that I feel I cannot live enough to his glory, who hath done such great things for me.

A knowledge of this will never lead a man into a licentious course of life, for the more I know of it in my heart, the more I hate sin, so that even a word spoken in haste often grieves me, stops communion with God, and leads me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members, but not under it, precious mercy, so that while I groan, under sin, being burdened, from being led captive to it, I can rejoice in that sin is made an end of, and sing with Isaiah, "Behold God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid, for the Lord Jehovah is my strength and my song, he also is become my salvation."

I send this forth to you, Mr Editor, whoever you are, for insertion in your Magazine, if you think it worthy your notice, and the notice of the Lord's family, for whom I feel myself particularly interested, having no other aim, but the glory of my God whose I am, and whom I serve, and the welfare of his children; and it is the petition of my heart, that his blessing may accompany it to the hearts of his children; whom he hath made fellow

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My dear brother in Christ, passing through the deep waters of tribulation, walking in darkness, and having no bright shining, may the Holy Ghost so strengthen thee with might in the inner man, that you may be enabled to trust in the Lord, and stay thyself upon the God of Israel; and may the great Eternal condescend to bless these few remarks, to the glo. rifying of his own great name, to the joy and rejoicing of thy heart, and to the confusion of Satan.

I would ask my dear friend, Why is thy countenance so sad-why so despairing why so desponding? What is thy state and condition? Is there no hope in Israel concerning thee? Art thou beyond the reach of God's mercy? Art thou any thing worse than a sinner? If thou paint thyself in colour the most odious, yea, as black as the devil himself, still it can only be said of thee, thou art a sinner. And the only question I would ask thee, is this: Hast thou a feeling sense of thy sinnership-hath the Holy Ghost convinced thee that thou art a sinner? Oh, yes, say you; I feel I am a vile sinner, a depraved sinner, a worthless sinner. Take comfort, then, my brother, thou art the very character for whom Jesus

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died; hear his own most gracious words (may the Holy Ghost apply them with almighty energy to thy soul), "I came not to call the righ teous, but sinners to repentance." Again the Holy Ghost proclaims, "This is a faithful saying" because it is the words of a faithful God; one who cannot lie, one that never said nay to a poor sin-sick, Christ-seeking soul-" This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation" (and surely of thine my dear brother), that Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners, of whom," says Paul, "I am chief." But no, says my dear friend, I think no one can be so vile as me; I have such hardness of heart, such impenitency, such unbelief; yea, a very mass of sin. Well, I would tell my dear friend, that if he did not thus feel his state as a sinner, he would not be a fit subject to receive a full and free salvation, at the band of God. And I would also ask thee, Do you think that after God has manifested such love and mercy, in breaking up in some measure the depth of depravity and corruption of your heart, and given you a feeling sense of your need of Jesus as your Saviour, that he intends to destroy you? Oh, no; I would say in the language of Manoah's wife, if the Lord had intended to destroy you, he woold not have showed thee such great things as these. How very blessed are these words of the Holy Ghost, as descriptive of a poor, trembling, tempted, distressed, and devil-confused child of God, when he says, “Oh, thou afflicted, tossed with tempest, and not comforted." Is this, my dear friend, any way similar to the feelings of thy soul? Art thou tossed about with the fierce winds of Satan's temptations, plunged hither and thither, no firm standing, no anchor-hold, not able to lay hold of God's immutable promises in Christ, by reason of the swelling of the I mighty waters of temptations, and crying out with one of thy brethren

of old, “I sink in deep mire, where there is no standing, I am come into deep waters, where the floods overflow me." Oh, my dear friend, this cannot be; they cannot overflow the poor trembling, sinking child of God (although to sense and feeling it may appear so), for Jehovah Jesus says,

When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee."

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May the Holy Ghost enable thee to discover, that though thou art passing through a tribulated path, it is a right path, and a path through which God's people have passed in all ages. It is no strange way, my dear friend. It is a pathway, the result and end of which shall be most blessed to thy soul. And, though now, from the fierce accusations of Satan, the father of lies, and the power of unbelief in thy soul, thou art writing bitter things concerning thyself, by and by, thou shalt have Jesus speak peace, and pronounce to thy soul, and give thee the rich and blessed enjoyment of them, I know the thoughts I think toward thee, thoughts of peace, and not of evil.” Fully confident I am, from the experimental teachings oi the Holy Ghost, and his divine testimony in the Scriptures of truth, that where he has given a poor sinner a feeling sense of his sinnership, so that the poor soul cries out, "Woe is me, for I am undone; I am a man of unclean lips ;" and also taught that poor soul, that without an interest in the blood and righteousness of the Lord Jesus, his case is hopeless; here, I say, 1 am confident, that God will give that soul spiritual light and life; hence arises the conflict between the two natures, and gives the soul to feel what the apostle did, when he made use of those words, "I find a law in my members warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin, which is in my members.' And where there

is not this spiritual light and life, there is nothing known of warfare, there is total darkness, there is no fear of God, there is no longing desires after Christ.

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"In thy light," says the psalmist, we shall see light." The light that God imparts, enables the poor soul to see out of obscurity; the light that God imparts, exhibits the darkness, the unclean, and wretched state of man by nature, so that the poor soul, viewing himself in God's light, is frightened at himself, and often wishes he never had an existence; the terrors of mount Sinai alarm him, a guilty conscience condemns him, the extent and spirituality of the law of God is held up to his view, his own impotency, insufficiency, and helplessness is felt; and all hope to merit acceptance before a holy and heartsearching God is banished, his false peace destroyed, and refuges of lies taken away, and the poor soul sinks down in despair, and looks for nothing, neither does he expect any thing, but the curse of God resting upon him through an endless eternity. But even this, my dear friend, is a blessed position for a soul to be brought into, for the Lord by these things stops his mouth of vain boasting, kills him to all creature good, gives him to feel that "by the deeds of the law no flesh is justified in his sight," and in God's own time is delivered from this state, by being enabled to look from self to Christ. And as the Lord is pleased to call forth faith into exercise, and the soul led to see by the eye of faith the allsufficiency of merit in the doing and dying of the Lord Jesus, and the Holy Ghost is pleased to reveal Christ Jesus in the beauties of his person and official character, and also at the same time to create in the soul such longings after him, that nothing for the time being will satisfy the poor soul, but to be enabled to claim Jesus, and say concerning him, "My Beloved is mine, and I am his"-in

consequence of which, the soul is often found crying out in fervent breathings, "Say unto my soul, I am thy salvation." By and by a little hope springs up, and then a promise spoke home to the heart, something of forgiving love sealed home on the conscience, and Jesus's presence somewhat enjoyed in the soul, and the poor soul knows in some measure what it is to bave peace with God through Jesus Christ our Lord; Satan withdraws, corruptions lurk into their dens, and all is calm and tranquil for a season, and the poor soul goes on cheerfully under these feelings, thinking his warfare is all over, and his enemies all slain-expecting to meet with no more difficulties,

thinking all his foes swallowed up in the Red Sea, and a fair passage awaits him till he arrives at the Canaan of rest. But alas! his enemies have only retreated for a season, to gain fresh strength, to assault the poor soul with more fury than ever, watching the best opportunity to commence a fresh attack; the poor soul, not expecting this, is off his guard, and by and by barrenness is felt in the soul-no sweetness enjoyed in prayer, no comfort in reading the word of God, the Lord's sensible and supporting presence is withdrawn, worldly mindedness gains upon him, and he is almost choked with anxiety, he begins to feel his darkness, corruptions begin afresh to rage and rave (faithful spies of Satan within the citadel) no comfort under the preached word, and scarcely any disposition to attend upon the means of grace, and when there, the heart wandering, like the fool's eyes, to the end of the earth, and the poor soul left to betray himself, in numberless instances, in thoughts, words, if not in actions, guilt increases upon the conscience, his spiritual feelings become benumbed, all the graces of the new man lie dormant, and to the view of the poor soul, wholly fled;

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